I went on a rant

I went on a rant at my other web journal. It's laden (if not laced) with profanity, so I'll just summarize it here.

I wrote it in response to a cnn.com article about what a big hardship it is going to be for college women now that the cost of birth control pills is going to triple because the government isn't reimbursing the drug companies anymore for selling them cheap.

It pissed me off. So I went on a rant. The long and short of it was that nobody has a right to birth control in the first place, so hearing people whine about how much money it was going to cost them to have consequence free sex made me want to break something.

The Hermit

The Hermit is an anonymous poster that reminded me of the fact that I have a Blog.

Oh I hadn't totally forgotten, but neither was it on my mind. This person said they missed me posting. Wow. OK, I'll certainly do a post.


Being single sucks.


These three words express volumes of my personal situation. I am a grad student, I get paid to go to school, I eat pretty well...things are great. But I'm single. There are no Orthodox girls my age in this city that I know. I suppose I could go church hopping, and hit the other Orthodox churches in the area and see if anyone is there, and I suppose that ultimately that is what I will have to do. This is a somewhat distasteful idea, because I don't know anyone at any of the other churches. So this will involve being, I fear, somewhat blatant.


My continual prayer for the last few months has been for my being single to end. With a vengeance. I cannot know God's mind nor His thoughts as to what precisely is the best thing for me, but this life is getting hard to live alone. I've been single forever. It's time for it to end, or for me to be struck with the absolutely overpowering desire to be a monk.

I really do not want to be a monk.

The odd thing about this Blog is that there isn't much in the way of Orthodox arguments that are required. Everyone, or nearly everyone, that would read this post gets the idea that I cannot and will not marry a non-Orthodox. According to the church such a marriage is, in fact, definitionally impossible. Marriage is a sacrament. The sacrament of marriage cannot exist between an Orthodox and a Non-Orthodox.

Two non-orthodox of course, can marry. But we say it is not a sacramental marriage. That being said, all the lucky bastards who got married FIRST and THEN became Orthodox did not have this difficult situation.

They got hitched back when they were legitimately ignorant of the importance of marrying within your own church. Or simply by getting married before discovering Orthodoxy, they had a bigger pool of people to choose from.

I, for my part, would be grateful for one.

Bah! I'm sounding bitter. It's only because I am bitter, but I oughtn't spew that at God. It would, to say the least, not accomplish very much.


So, all of you that may read this. Pray for me. I'm tired of going it alone, and I want to get married.

Amen.


-Alexion